Haiz...

Yesterday im usually have my vocal class at halo,i get ready and drive to JayaOne...and actually my group have an presentation today,but Because Ing Yan absent for the class so our presentation be postpone to next week,Thanks LOL...

but the reason i heard from chun mei that Ing Yan absent,is because got something bordering her...hope everything be OK,cause too sudden that she said she not going to attend the class.

when i reach halo,it was very strange feeling for me that chun mei feel so down that day,maybe because she tired of she work and also need to rush for the presentation translation,feel sorry to her...since I'm din do much about the presentation almost all the thing are done by Shie Hau ,Chun mei and also Ing Yan,I'm just cut the song and find some unnecessary information,im really useless,sorry everyone...

suddenly the whole Halo forest have no electricity,firstly i though is just small case of jump fuse,but the electricity cant recover at all.after 20 minute of waiting for the electricity,suddenly saw outside of our classroom are so many people passing around and chit chat-ing about the electricity,then i realize that it a big case already lol...

if not wrong,i heard seow mei said it because the music school are use up more then the limit of the electricity,so it cause no electricity and because of that one of the Keyboard are spoiled by the problem,and also one computer in teacher office,the most horrible is,when the electricity is run out(that mean no electricity la...),the computer at teacher office have smoke out from the computer CPU,wa no electricity also will burn leh...the problem are so serious...so our class cannot continue,teacher will replace the class someday.

since have no electricity I'm no mood to went home at the moment,and teacher said want to chit chat with use awhile...so we chat awhile,and say about Shie Hau,Elliot and WeiYan are going to go for the audition about get the chance to perform.and teacher ask me to go and have a try also,i accept and go and have a try today.after the chit chat teacher suggest to go down stair and find place to have a drink,cause it really hot at Halo Forest.we all go first and teacher come after the meeting finish.i ask seow mei and Alan go too.

we reach , and we finish our drink and food,teacher still not yet come same as alan and seow mei,so my classmate prefer to go back already,but i stay there and wait for teacher, seow mei and Alan.i think that time I'm so unnecessary at there with them,cause they talking about the class teaching thing...feel like alan was very down everyday after he teach at halo forest,I don know why,every time i ask him he have nothing to tell me also...hope he be ok...

i went back home after the drinks with alan and seowmei,i went back home.when I'm back home Shie Hau ask me issit i going for the audition or not,and told me that he stay near to me so plan to go together,now im only realize that he stay just nearby,since he are like lack of time everyday,sure will suddenly disappear after the class,even yesterday we all classmate go for drink he also back home first...so busy lol...

Today morning,i wake up and prepare for the audition later,and shie hau come to fetch me and also fetch wei yan and JingYou,me, ShieHau and weiyan wait at the Putra LRT Tamanjaya about 20 minute(wait for JingYou),then we starting to head to the place.we use around 2 hour to reach the place,cause we don know the way,(but when come back just use like 20minute...swt).

The situation is strange for me when we reach,shake hand and introduce yourself...im not like this situation and feel so weird when i do it,but the person who greet us said he like saw me b4...swt why?...i have no idea...we start our audition,all people sing are so great and nice,but me...after i sing i was sad till i have no mood at all,im sing like SHIT!!ark i cant forgive myself for that...to shame everyone and teacher...haiz...

i have silent for the whole day when at there,the person keep said I'm so quite and toooooooo quite...ark just because I'm feel sad what...he give some example about the different about the tempo and style of one song sing by himself,he sound nice and sing very well but is Oily lol...but he said must be Oily to sing on pub or even stage,so only can attract ppl attention...i have no idea with that...

I'm down for the whole day,until I'm fall a sleep just now,everything have been past abit but still sad...my voice are too weak,and I'm too weak,I'm not strong enough,when 2007-2008 I boring and tired with singing,cause I'm stuck there and cannot get any improvement...now i have the same feeling as that time...I'm useless enough nothing can do...I'm going to be back the KengSoon last time...I'm abit tired of my singing,i really don know how to make my vocal more powerful and strong...pls don have any thing make me do the same thing as last time...pls...

Endless Sad for today,useless kengsoon have back,or even din leave b4...

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